I woke up this morning having the same feeling when I had my heart broke for the first time. I stared blankly at the windows, wanting to go back to sleep, or better yet not to have been woken up. It is one of those days when you just want it all to be okay and be over. The pain that kills you inside should not be shown on the outside. I can’t even stop crying. No, actually, I think this is worse because I can’t even cry. And so I have to feel all the pain I have to feel. And honestly, it sucks, because I just don’t know how it can stop. I just want to cry or sleep but those two I can’t manage to do. I just want to be okay. But I don’t know how to. No I can’t.
Oh please, God. I am begging you. Please help me let go of all the pain. 😦