It’s been a little weird for me lately. I’ve been feeling frustrated, and sometimes even insecure. I haven’t been eating well, and worse, I haven’t been honest to myself. I have noticed how unpredictable I have become over the last few weeks. It’s bothering me, actually. MANY things are bothering me these days. My mind is becoming a little too preoccupied and it’s really annoying me.
I went to the UST Chapel again after my Ethics class after a long time. I haven’t visited ever since the second semester started. The time I stopped reading the Bible daily, I have also become lazy to go visit the Chapel everyday, too. But, yesterday was different. It felt so heavy yet empty inside that the only thing left for me to do was to go talk to Him. I’ve been feeling this emptiness lately, and I just couldn’t bear the thought of m being so indifferent and insensitive at the same time. I seriously don’t know what’s happening to me, but I am hoping that I would be able to pass this test.
I don’t really feel “alone.” I just feel… nothing. Indifferent… Different.